Long time..

So long in fact, I forgot I even had an account.

A lot has happened to me lately, lost my love, lost my heart, lost my mind, I even tried to kill myself by taking a couple bottles of pills, unfortunately, my body is too strong for that and all i got was a very high heart rate of about 195 beats per minute for about 12 hours straight. My arm has cigarette burns and I really dont see a point in living anymore. When I took those pills I felt happy, relieved and at peace, something I havent felt for ages. Maybe I'm just nuts, hell.. its not like anyone reads my blog xD

But yeah, life is a bitch, maybe im just a weak person, someone without a cause, or maybe there really isnt a point in living when we are all going to die anyway, why put up with the pain and hate of this world when peace is only a few bottles of pills away? Its my own life, Im not physically harming anyone else, the only crime im committing is my own death.

I am not a fan of what Ive become, ive become controlling, a jerk, OCD, a smoker, a toker (not that there is anything wrong with marijuana and people should be able to use it whenever they want) Ive become nothing more than a nuisance to society, no one has ever wanted me, no one ever will, Im nothing more than a bag of water with $6.87 of precious metals in my system, maybe i should add a few cents of lead to that.

Whoever does end up reading this will either relate to me or be disgusted with me, but thats your choice.